Saturday, May 08, 2010

Some days

Some days, I feel like asking her
"Why??"
Some days, I feel like asking her
"How could you?"
Some days, I feel like asking her
"Was I ever your good friend??"
Some days, I feel like asking her
"Why didn't you warn me?"
Some days, I feel like asking her
"Why didn't you say something after he told you?"
Some days, I feel like asking her
"Would you still be my friend if I did the same to you?"

But most days... I just have nothing to say
Because nothing she says, can erase what happened.

Someone said to me,
It's neither right nor wrong when feelings develop,
But it's what you do about them, that is right or wrong.

I do not hate her,
I'd like to believe I am better than that,
But I can never see her the same way,
Ever again.

10 comments:

Michelle said...

She doesn't deserve a good friend like you.

Anonymous said...

I agree she doesn't deserve your friendship. A real friend would never do that to you, no matter how she feels for him.

There are other fishes in the sea that doesn't belong to you. Why can't she go and fish somewhere else? Cheap is all I can say.

Mei said...

I had to cut her off. I can't have one of my close friends, suddenly becoming his girlfriend. I can't take that.

Perhaps it's time for me to protect myself, to shield myself from more pain. Time for me to start thinking about ME.

Jenny said...

Be the better person and just don't care gal. Just walk away.
Some day, the guilt will consume them.

Mei said...

Jenny: I have walked away. And I don't want to know whatever happens between them.

I just have myself to worry about now.

Anonymous said...

take care mei!
i also met almost same situation as u few months ago.. really cant take that at all!
hope u will be fine soon ^.*

Mei said...

Anonymous: I will be okay. God gave every one of us defence mechanisms, to protect ourselves when the need arises.

Everyone deals with crisis differently, but we all come out ok at the end of it.

I hope things have improved for you as well.

Anonymous said...

Tell us who that bitch is and we'll spam her mailbox till the cows come home!!

Mei said...

I shall not stoop to that. The reason I'm writing about it is because this is my outlet. This is my therapy.

I have no intentions on making the world hate her, or him. It takes 2 for something to happen, the same way it takes 2 for something to fall apart.

I just wished there wasn't someone else in the picture before things ended with us, that's all.

Mei said...

And spamming her mailbox ain't gonna bring "us" back.

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