It's been a few days since I last penned down something.
I wasn't even sure whether I wanted to write this entry.
I didn't want to say anything to hurt anyone's feelings, albeit unintentionally.
I didn't want to say anything that would trigger unhappiness in myself.
I didn't want to 'think' basically.
I don't want to evaluate the situation in my head anymore.
I am too tired.
I have had enough.
I let myself be bogged down by all the emotions the past few days,
And I realize it hasn't brought me anywhere but back.
Back to the memories of us,
Back to the things that happened after.
Back to the web of entanglement.
We had our story.
Some love stories aren't epic novels.
Some are short stories.
But that doesn't make them any less filled with love.
I love you, and perhaps I always will.
But I also need to love me too.
And I need to love myself, my way.
In my time...
So now, I shall be just 'me'.
(And my Remy of course)
I look forward to tomorrow,
and I will keep looking forward to the day after that, and the day after.
One minute less of thinking about things that are beyond my control,
Is one minute more spent making myself happy.
3 comments:
First, it takes time to heal when it hurts so much (thanks Mariah). Secondly, it's always easier to delve into the past than it is to look ahead mainly because the future's unknown. No doubt, it is important to seek answers from the past but to peg one's future on the past is the quickest path to bitterness. Take one step at a time to walk forward Mei, answers will reveal themselves as you do.
You have to be strong and let your head take you where you need to go. Not your heart.
I have faith that you can get through this. Just hang in there, and the storm shall pass.
No doubt you get this alot but I have to remind you that: I LOVE YOUR BLOG! reading through old post til now your definately progressing. I admire your strength of getting back up!
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