This is MY little space,
And I will continue to write what I feel,
The way I want,
Because it's ME.
It's my outlet, it's my therapy.
Always has been.
I have not mentioned names.
I have not said anything nasty.
If you want to read the posts,
It's your choice.
But if you're asking me not to blog,
Because it's difficult for you to read,
Then I'm sorry, I can't do that for you.
You said that I wronged my ex-bf,
And yet I condemn the both of you for doing the same,
That I'm telling one side of the story.
But the truth is, I have long told my story.
Yes, I do believe this is karma biting me back,
For the wrongs I have done in the past.
I lost the guy I loved then because of it.
I am not proud of it,
But at least I had the strength to own up to it.
I had the courage to face the world,
And apologized for it. (you can read my older posts)
I am not afraid of what "the world" might think of me.
I did the crime, and I paid my time.
And you know how miserable I made myself,
I made myself suffer in hope that I would feel better,
Before you walked into my life.
And convinced me I could still find love.
That I could still be happy,
That everyone makes mistakes,
But if they sincerely repent and learn from them,
Then everyone deserves a second chance.
But me having done wrong in my past,
Does not make what you are doing, right.
You can go ahead and do whatever,
It does not change anything between us.
I harbour no hope on our relationship anymore.
But please, at the same time...
Just let me blog,
And let me grieve my way.
So I too, can move on with life.
15 comments:
You continue to blog what you feel, girl. Your posts are honest and brilliant. If they don't like it, then don't read it. You are not forcing them to come and read your blog.
Like your attitude! you will ONLY be going stronger and stronger. You deserve to be loved.
You have so much love to share. Share it with someone who deserves your love. One day, God will send him to you. He will come to you without you having to search for him. Trust me on it.
Keep being strong and doing it your own way Mei! =) Ganbatte!
What a b*tch! She has the nerves to tell you not to blog about this?! She dared do this kind of things, she shouldn't be afraid to be exposed if she thinks what she's doing is not wrong! If I were you, I would even mention her name and post a pic of her on the blog to show the whole world!!
Well said girl! Bravo.
No, she didn't say that. I haven't spoken to her since the day she admitted that they are taking things forward.
It was him - which is why it hurt even more. To come to realization that my significance has been surpassed by someone else.
I won't put her photo up for the whole world to see. For this is between us, not the whole world.
Circulating things about them ain't gonna change anything. Why go there?
This is merely an outlet for me to express how I feel. So I didn't have to torment my friends all the time with my stories of my sad life. Haha.
Just blog whatever you feel like. He is such a loser. Maybe I should expose the bitch photo on your behalf. But I think she looks like shit with super short legs. He has bad taste.
stay strong and be strong. my bf of 4yrs just left me this April. no reason and just a phone call to put a full stop. I understand how you feel. but life goes on. though i don know how long it will take for me to move on but i know i can. please take care and lead a better life than them. keep on going :)
nice blog and i like your honesty in expressing yourself...
however i seriously think that no one is wrong in the world of love...
feeling changes everyday
so why live in the past when you can strive for a better future?
It is definitely alright to be bitter and sulk about it. but you hafta wake up and pull yourself together coz world don't just stop revolving around you.
and to expose or not to expose him / her is just a childish game...we are all adult here.
why put them as your priority when you are just an option in their life.
you are making yourself and their life unhappy simply because your love is no longer returned...
so gal...
chin up and i believe you will find a greater love than you had
and to anonymous up there...
common what's the point of criticizing others when you don't even have gut to pen down your real name...i think you are the bigger loser here
Anonymous: Beauty is in the eye of the beholder. I stress again, that I may be angry, but I do not hate him, nor her.
And there is no point in "exposing" her or anything. And urrr, you know who she is?
Anonymous: I hope you will feel better soon too. As for me, I am taking small steps forward everyday.
I am today, one step closer to being my "old" self! I will soon have a new goal, something to look forward to.
When the time is right and things are confirmed, I will announce what it is :)
Lee: Thanks, honesty is the best policy, no?
Just want to clear the air that I am not living in the past. I am grieving my loss, so I can move forward with life :) It is normal to go through these stages when one is faced with crisis in life.
The world doesn't revolve around me. Neither does it revolve around them. I have come to realise that there is noone in this world that we can't live without. It's just a matter of letting go and readapting. But it will all take time.
He WAS my priority, I have to admit. But I have to reevaluate my life, and shift my focus on something else, career for example.
I am not trying to make their lives unhappy - I don't think they are even affected. Hey, I'm sure life goes on for them too! I am merely coping with this by letting it out. Or else, I'd die just bottling it all in.
I will keep my chin up! :)
Hi Mei...
I'm new follower of your blog.. I read your blog just simply because I crossed your blog while searching for other. But after reading urs, I now want to follow ur blog because of the way U r writing and U show urself.
Nice blog and so I'm following it now.
In this Solace post, U have mentioned about Karma because of past. Do u know about Indian Hinduism and belive it or this belief is in ur religion also or u r Hindu.
I'm just asking b'coz it appear in my thought.. If u dont want to get into it just leave it..
I wish u all success in ur Life as u wish in ur life.
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