I have been trying so hard to have some sort of order back in my life.
I think of this, and plan for that. And try to predict all the "what if's".
I always want to do the right thing. By me, by others around me.
I don't want to say this. I shall not say that. I can't do this. I shall not do that.
Sometimes, being the 'better' one gets tiring.
Some days, I just wanna do what I feel like,
Say whatever I want,
Live in the moment, for the moment.
And face whatever happens next. Next.
I just want to be happy too.
Whether it's for a moment, a season, or a lifetime.
Time will tell.
And only I will know whether it's all worth it in the end.
6 comments:
Be strong girl. It is easy to turn away and go back to the familiar when things get tough. Some even run away from it.
But only the strong will stay behind to face it and fight it.
We love you.
Mei, do whatever you feel like. If you want something go get it!
Never dwell of "what if..." because you will make yourself dwell FAR too much. Trust me...I know this.
Things like that and "I asked her to do that for me when we were togther and she didnt want to but now she IS doing it..." will make you go bonkers also.
Again...Forward! Onward! CONTINUE!
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Live life to the fullest! Enjoy and live every moment like it is the last day of your life.
Remember, life is not measured by the number of breaths we take but by the moments that take our breath away. =)
I went through a break up about two years ago. We were together for a year. Even though I had broken it off I still had a hard time with it. I never thought it would end, much less the way it did.
I threw myself into anything and everything else. I sang. I played piano. I leaned heavily on my friends. I lived life. And somehow, somewhere along the way I healed the wounds. I couldn't really tell you when it happened, but it did.
Every step is one forward into a new journey. Dive into this new journey and keep walking; some day you'll look back and realize "I'm better. I'm okay."
Prayers for you Mei!! You're a tough lady!!
What if what I feel like doing, isn't right? What if what I feel like doing, isn't what I should be doing?!
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