Today,
He finally changed his relationship status on his facebook.
It is final. It is public.
It is... for real.
Not like it wasn't real before.
But the affirmation, was the last nail into the coffin.
It was my final wake-up call.
It has been a week since it happened.
It has been many days since she called / texted to ask how I was.
It is now just ME, HIM, HER.
I have lost them both.
Perhaps, this is God's way of punishing me
For the wrongs that I have done in the past.
7 comments:
oh babe i hope you're alright, reading your last few posts broke my heart x
OMG, I hope the other 'girl' isn't someone who's actually a friend we've seen in your photos. I'd kill her myself!!
Ally: Somehow, people only comment when my posts are sad :( Perhaps that's how people relate.
But thanks for asking... I will be alright. I am back in the embrace of my lovely family today, and they have not left me alone for a second.
They do not judge, they do not ask. They just accept, they just love.
Y*rdeh: Only time will reveal the truth. I am not mean spirited, and I will not say anything bad.
Someone said to me: You can never fully control developing feelings for one another. And it's neither right or wrong about how you feel. It is what one does about those feelings, that is right or wrong.
And I think that's very right. So, only time will reveal everything.
Mei, I know how it feels. Somehow reading your posts made me teared. I may not be there to witness all these, but I definitely feel the pain you're going through.
I believe you need time, support from your friends, and family. The reality is hard, especially when the other party has learned to let go and move forward like how he has just did in your situation. The feeling's extremely bitter, but it is sometimes better to be that way, so that you can start healing...slowly with time and learn that things have now moved on to another different level. The cold truth and harsh reality may not necessarily be a bad thing.
I went through the same thing like you did 4 years ago, and walked out alive...and stronger than before. Cry all you want, cos I believe you'll eventually learn how to bounce back after going through the lowest point of your life...and then the tears would just stop on its own naturally. It is perhaps just a matter of adjusting, and I know few years down the road, you will see things differently... You're right, by then these feelings you once had will be transformed and kept in a safety box. I now see things I went through at a different level, as in there are no more pain, hatred, blamings... but just plain memories, you know. And I know you would be the same, if not better.
Perhaps some things happened for a reason, or reasons that we don't need to question much but rather believe in it and accept the fact. Facts are what we need to move on. Maybe God has better plans for you, or even a better man to walk beside you in the near future =) No one knows. Stay strong and I know we would hope to see the confident and cheerful Mei once again =)
Regards,
Caryn
Caryn: Yes, one day, I will be back... happy, confident, and stronger than ever :)
We all learn from our past - relationships, friendships etc. And every single one teaches you something, so you can be a better at your next one. I have learnt from my past, and have done better in this relationship. But there are still things to learn from this one... for my future.
At the end of this, I will emerge as the "new and improved" version of myself :) Just you wait.
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