People say, time will heal all wounds.
It just takes time.

Well I can tell you that right now, time seems to be at a standstill.
I managed to cry myself to sleep after not having slept for more than a day,
But kept waking up to the dead silent house.
Filled with too many things that we were, too many memories that we shared.
Now, untouched. They have become 'objects'.
Objects that no longer represent us. 
Photos that no longer represent us.

I wake up only to have to relive this nightmare again and again.
And I feel horrible, that Remy has to feel horrible with me too.
I know he is a good boy. I know he loves me lots.
But to have to go through all this with me, is just so unfair to a little doggie.
He is meant to be cuddled, to be loved by everyone.
He deserves better.

In fact, I have come to realise that all 3 of us, deserve better.