Making progress?

I have been spending quite some time at home with the family.
Mom has been cooking yummy meals, boiling soups, making yummy desserts.
She even made birds' nest this morning.
I feel truly blessed to have my loved ones pick me up again.
My sis would come home for lunch some days to spend time with me.
Grandma is doing okay - I'm sooo relieved.
Dad has been coming into the room to give me goodnight hugs every night.
Close friends have been doing dinners and drinks with me.

Myself, I have been challenging myself everyday.
I have been driving. First it was around the neighbourhood.
Then to One Utama (along the LDP Highway) and then to KL Sentral.
And so far, I haven't killed anyone, knocked anyone else' car, or been killed.
So it's quite a big thing for me.
Been pampering myself a little. Went for a facial the other day.
Today, I went to the hairdresser's to get a treatment and haircut.
Basically, I have been trying to keep myself busy.

I think I am making progress .
I am eating now, and sleeping, which is good.
But as night falls, and I close my eyes, I still dream of you.
And all the what if's.
I wonder how you're keeping over there.
I wonder if you fall asleep thinking of me too.
I wonder if you ever wish we could take any of it back.

But most of all, I wonder
When will the pain get better.