Friday, April 16, 2010

I wish I was dead

How can I be dead, yet still alive?
I would give anything to make this immense pain go away.
Perhaps even for a few seconds.

I beg of YOU... Dear God, please help me through this.

12 comments:

Rolie Polie Lolie said...

I might not know how it feels, but I do have some idea. I'm just a phone call away babe.

Mei said...

YinLee: Thanks babe. Perhaps one day, when I'm ready to talk *hugz*

Really appreciate it.

Anonymous said...

Have faith.
That one day, wounds will heal, and life goes on.
may not be tomorrow, or the day after, but it will, one day.

Meanwhile, I'm on call, 24/7

Anonymous said...

I know how difficult you may feel, but as other says, life goes on. Trust me, soon you will even forget his name.

Jem said...

Everything will be alright. Concentrate on yourself, on your life projects, on all the things you would like to do and that you will do.
You will love your life again!!!
love, loulou

Mei said...

Funny: I know it will. Yesterday is gone. No matter how tough it was, how painful it was, how aimless and helpless I felt. It's gone.

But today, I wake up after crying myself to sleep, feeling even worse. I just don't know how much more I can take of this.

l_fcl: Yes the days still pass. But it feels like the "life" that I know has vanished. The thing that is still moving along, is just time.

And he is a good man. I will never forget his name. Perhaps all that we shared will have to be packed up in my memory box, but they will always be there. Never forgotten. Never.

I just hope that some day, I will forget about this pain, and learn to love again.

Mei said...

LouLou: I am trying extremely hard. I really am.

sl said...

hey... i know how it feels....its extremely painful.

yet, do not give up. hang in there. Chin up.

SUPER BIG BIG HUGZ!!

desdemonasi said...

hey i like ur posts!!!!!!!

n i mst say tht ur s0000000 beatifulllllllll!!!!!!!!!

can i ask u d reas0n 0f sad posts??????
has s0me1 br0ke ur heart beautifulllllll????????

Unknown said...

Hi Mei, I've been following your blog on and off. I'm really sorry to read that something has upset you very much. If it is what I think it is, I am in the same situation and know how it's like. I think I've come a long way now, but not without self-evaluation and numerous phases of regret, self-doubt and guilt. There has been a website and a couple of books that have helped me alot. Let me know if you'd like me to share what they are.

Best,
Jo

Mei said...

Hi Jo,

Thank you for your support. I am doing alright. It is never easy when something ends. But this little space provides me with therapy. A place for me to share and express my thoughts.

A space for me to grow. In years to come, I can look back at how far I've come, and challenges that I have faced... and risen from.

I still do read my archive from time to time :) You live, and learn another day.

But I will be more than willing to see what they are, if you are kind enough to share. I'm sure if they helped you, they can help someone else too.

Erkin Blue said...

always remember, use what it is given to you, we have right now one life, therfore one big chance to make the best out of it. Even in bad times keep a positive spirit!

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