is really quite peculiar sometimes.
I have just returned from a fantastic 2 weeks holiday from NZ. Met some super gorgeous people from different parts of the world whom I intend to keep in touch with *more of NZ in another post*
Sorry been neglecting the blog for the past few weeks! Have been away, so can't really blame me, can you now? :P
Well, upon returning to reality, I have been pondering and reflecting on alot of things. Well, mainly just my life in general...
I have been tossing about my options in career. About where I should advance to, and how that will impact the rest of my life. And the truth is, I don't absolutely know what I really want to do.
I am sure I can make do with alot of the options that are available... but is that what I really want? It seems that everyone else is getting into a training program, and progressing somewhere. I suppose the fear comes from feeling left out? I don't quite know.
A friend last night that said " Are you certain they are getting into training because that IS what they want? Or are they proceeding that way because it seems like the logical thing to do?"
I don't really know the answer to that, but shouldn't I be doing the logical thing as well? I've only gotten this far! Got through medical school and have been working for this long, only to find myself hitting a brick wall at the end of it?
I suppose the big question is, career advancement? or work-life balance? Am I willing to uproot myself, leave everything else behind and start a new job, or should I stay where my loved ones are. Stay with familiarity, that hopefully provides me with a sense of security?
I could live being "mediocre" and "normal". I would still be very happy with my loved ones by my side. If so, then Why am I chasing for more? Am I afraid of being stereotyped as normal? Subconsciously, am I more competitive than I think I am?
Sometimes, I think I just need someone to point me to the right direction. To remind me of who I am, and what I am capable of...
To reassure me that no matter what happens, you are still going to be there for me, to support me and stand by me, even on a bleak, stormy day.
2 comments:
I guess we all ask that question every now and then...
career? or better life?
I've asked myself that very same question for the past 3.5 years since I started working...and sad to say, I'm no closer to the answer than you are, I reckon..
To do something we want? or do what we perceive to be right?
It's a million dollar question I reckon
Funny: You need to let me know once you figure it all out :) I am still stuck in this whirlpool of confusion...
Life, why do we have to make it so complicated?
Perhaps I would be alot happier if I were to be a simpler person? Don't you think?
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