Wednesday, May 03, 2006

To Call Or Not?

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Here I am, sitting,
holding the phone in my hand,
wondering whether to press those few numbers,
Those few magical numbers that bring oceans together,
That enables me to hear you, listen to you...


Should I? Or should I not?

I still can't decide.

Argh..
Sometimes, I wished you knew what I was thinking,
so that I didn't have to call you to let you know...

"Good Luck"
and "All the best!"

That's all I wanted to say,
without complicating things for myself,
without blurring my vision all over again.
I shall not, I CANNOT.


** maybe if I chant this a thousand times, it may work **


21 comments:

Undercover Jerk said...

SMS is enough :)

Anonymous said...

You're always in a dilemma. Always so down. Cheer up girl.

EstherandAlvin said...

Mei.. you know yourself that it's probably better Not to keep in contact for awhile, we know you're just being a good friend to call & wish him etc.

However, ask yourself>> If listening to his voice does not help you move on, then perhaps you should avoid that?
I know it sounds harsh, but wait till you're really,totally, completely over him, I guess that's the best time to keep in touch, or call, with your heart being totally at peace.

Hope I'm making some sense here...

Wuching said...

aiya, ur in that mood again! ok lah, u can practise on me lah so call me, call me now @ 1300-wuching! hahaha

but seriously, u stay up late at nights & brood over him is just not healthy mei! u gotta snap outta it!

Anonymous said...

You can try sms and save that sms in your mobile's archive. It feels as if you have sms-ed him. It could work. Does he want to talk to you? If you call him, will you start feeling good and then extremely sad when you hang up? Some things are better left unsaid. Have you written a letter that tells him how you really think and feel? Any solution written in the letter on how he may do his part to help you forget your emotions toward him? All the best, and I hope all these questions can help you think what you should or could do to erase the past and live the future.

Mei said...

fuckster: SMS, hmm.. that's a thought. But a lill impersonal, don't you reckon??

Mei said...

leanne: Thanks for the concern, but I am really okay. I just sit around and ponder about silly stuff sometimes. Hahahaha...

Mei said...

est: I'm slowly making some progress. At least I don't get upset and cry to myself anymore. And I can actually handle talking to him and all... It's just good to be able to listen to his voice once in awhile...

And don't worry dear gal. I'm okay. I know what I'm doing :) Thanks for being there for me! *hugz*

Mei said...

wuching: OK OK.. I will :) I shall try! *snap snap snap*

SuetLing said...

call call =o) A call always makes a difference =o)

Anonymous said...

hhmmm.....i'm trying to get the gist of things without ransacking ur archives so i've come to the conclusion that u are in the midst of getting over a break-up?

but still dragging urself over it? hhmmmm....time n tide waits for no (wo)man. :) *hugs*

Mei said...

suetling: Hahah, yes i did call *shy* dont know if it made a difference though.

Mei said...

yvy: It's been awhile, really...

Anonymous said...

u know what...
for u to say that it feels good to hear he's voice.. really suggest that you are not over him at all.. and u're tryin to deny it by makin urself and everyone else around u think so..
there's no use hiding that cheering mask... because the heart bleeds.. and cries.. and it all speaks in ur words...
so.. do the right thing..and DONT CALL HIM!!

Mei said...

anonymous: Thanks for your advice and effort... but I think I know what I'm doing. Thank you...

Mei said...

john vain: Maybe I might, if I had your number? Heheh :)

How's life btw?

Anonymous said...

YOU SHOULD CALL!!!!!!! live ur life with no regret.... Aikya....shit... have to go now... too many ppl(ur admirersss) throwing stone on me now.... aikya!! chao.... all the best!!!

Mei said...

john vain: why Germany??

Mei said...

anonymous: Huh? What admirers are you talking about? *confused*

Anonymous said...

admirer... is me lo :P

Mei said...

John Vain: What does that mean?

anonymous: Hehe, you're really funny :D

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