Friday, August 11, 2006

Lost...

I am...
not the person I used to be.
I am...
exactly the person I DO NOT want myself to be.

I used to be independent, strong, a whole, complete.
Whatever happened to that?
Where did the old me disappear to?
How could it just vanish within me?

I feel... needy and clingy.
Within you, I lose myself.
I dislike myself for being this way.
I can't comprehend feeling incomplete.

I wanna be... all of me,
Not only a half of you.

ArgHhHh...

10 comments:

The Unknown said...

For all that is lost, one is to be found.

Anonymous said...

You think too much gal!You'll be fine.

*hugz*

cya at dinner! :)

Anonymous said...

Dear Mei,

You have not lost yourself; just consider the old you is now more matured and is hibernating for a while, and giving a 'new' you a chance to see things differently.

When the time comes, when you (new) reach a to more grounded level of maturity then the old you comes out to fuse with the new you. Then will you only feel complete. Does this make sense? In short, be who you want to be and don't let your thoughts to overrule you.

I dream of dreams, I hope of hopes, and I realise as long as I can think, I have the opportunities to reach what I believe in. Some may or may not agree, but I am naught without my dreams, hopes and opportunities. - Edwina Tawene -

william wilstroth said...

wow man... sad entry...

cheer up a bit lar...

yoda : "adaptability human can... time comes you shall...eeemmmmm"...

hehehehe... cheers...

Anonymous said...

Mahn, I so feel you right now. Where the hell has the old "me" gone to?

Mei said...

the unknown: I trust the truth in that. Just have to wait to reveal what it is, to be found I guess?

Mei said...

ade: yeaps, I am fine :D Thanks! *hugz*

Mei said...

anonymous: I lost you somewhere in the middle. But thanks for the comment anyways.

But I reckon we were referring to different issues.

Mei said...

william wilstroth: It's not a sad entry. It's more.. an angry entry. Angry at myself for being this way.

Mei said...

carole: Well, I guess we'll have to spend some time, searching for answers.

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