There's a saying that goes, "Behind every cloud, there is a silver lining".
But at this very moment, life sucks. BIG time. S.UC.K.S!
I'm trying hard, searching for that silver lining, no matter how thin...
Yet all I see, is bleak.
Nothing but darkness...
Nothing but pain...
Crushing on my chest, tearing every inch of my flesh.
Nothing, that could make this sadness go away...
I teared, I cried, I sobbed myself dry.
I'm drained of all emotions...
All but that sadness that remains real and palpable.
And no, this is NOT about *him*
This is not about anyone but me.
Me, and my inadequacy.
Thank you all, who has been tremendously supportive.
I know you people care... and I love you guys for that!
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I wrote this entry this afternoon, but never had the courage to post it.
And then Sau told me to be brave...
To stand strong, and face it head on.
I'm not sure if I can, but hell, I'm trying!
Perhaps, some things in life are just meant to be a certain way...
And I'm still connecting the dots to find out where I'm meant to be heading.
25 comments:
"this too shall pass"
keep your chin up.
*HuG*
take my hand... i'll walk you out of those gray clouds... and show you the 7 colours of the rainbow...
hey, don't know what's wrong, but hang in there. sometimes it's hard to see things in a positive way, but if you look back you might just see that you've made it good so far, and that in itself is reason to be proud.
"When you come to the edge of all that you know, you must believe in one of two things:
There will be ground upon which to tread, or you will be given wings to fly."
Have faith, ML...
hey, if its any comfort...im going through weeping days as well...and really, i understand your pain...all i can do is pray..
sometimes i dont even know what im supposed to be praying for..
if i pray for him to come back, that sounds selfish.
if i pray for me to have the strength to let go, i feel like im giving up to early...
it really sucks...
Aiyaiyai....
I know how ur feeling as i've been in trenches so deep that i fell sick before but just to let u know, things can only get better!
I also know it's not easy to be contented with what you have, however easier said than done..just take some time, sit back and look at what you have in your grasp, as you'll realise that life is really better than you think it is...
Cheer Up! =D
anonymous: I can only hope that it does, quickly...
andrew: Aww, thanks for the offer. That's sweet :D
vagus: Yes, I'm beginning to believe that everything happens for a reason, and we're meant to learn from it. Sometimes you get it easy, something you just have to learn the hard way.
Thanks for those words, and slowly but surely, I'm learning to embrace the situation, learn from it, and emerge stronger a person.
And hopefully, when I look back one day, I'll see that, this is indeed God's will, to lead me where I'm meant to be.
anucia: I really understand what you're going through. But again I stress, this entry is not about 'him' or 'anyone'.
I know it sounds corny, but really... at bleak moments like these, the blessing is that you see who your true friends really are. Those who will go miles out of the way, in hope to cheer you up, and see that smile on your face, however faint it might be now.
When God closes a door on you, He opens a window. And if you look hard enough, you'll see it. Good luck *hugz*
hang in there, dear. sometimes the silver lining is harder to see, but it'll appear...not now, maybe later. take care.
karheng: I did alot of thinking yesterday, and to my surprise... I actually have more true friends than I thought. For that, I'm thankful.
And I got to keep believing that, when there is a will... there is a way. I know, if I want something bad enough, I'll climb the highest mountain, and cross the deepest trenches to get it.
sooyin: Thanks! You're always so supportive when I'm feeling low. *hugz*
*sob sob... (T_T)¯\(^_^) *u'll be fine
tmy: we'll all be... Life goes on no matter what. No matter how difficult the situation, we'll get through it!
thank YOU for listening to my whinging and sobbing. hehehehe. Thank YOU with a Capital T! Really! *hugz*
People consider their lives in a relative manner. In a rut now? Means it used to be better. Flying high? Used to be worse. So maybe there is no meaning in happiness, were it not for the presence of pain and sadness for contrast.
People miraculously adapt to the worst of times, and when finally it passes, when finally a smile turns up, it becomes so much sweeter, much more precious, simply because it knows the troubles that preceded it.
I hope you find that smile
hun vee: Yes, I believe life is relative, and very subjective. But it's important to keep looking forward and comparing yourself for improvement.
And thanks for the sweet words. I have found that smile in this bleak situation, for I have family and friends who are truly supportive.
Friends who will go out of their way, at ungodly hours to comfort and help me *you know who you are*, and family who is willing to sacrifice their precious time, talking sense into me. I truly truly love you people for that !
*getting emo already* hehehe
iwashigh: Do not forget that you're one of them too! *hugs*
I cannot ever say this enough...
THANK YOU EVERYONE!
so sad one. excuse me while I get tissues.
Cheer up girl!
xes: I'm sorry, but I was really sad yesterday. My eyes were all puffy. :(
But when the skies were dark enough, I saw the stars... all my lovely shining stars around me. love them to bits!
mei: when ur in an emotional state...thinking normally brings not much good...ey?
What i mean is...that normally u'll think of why do things happen to you in that way..quite biasedly if i might say so myself...but sometimes u have to put yourself in the other party's shoes to understand why this happened to u....
It'll help i feel but u've to be honest down to the last bit when u think that way...
maybe u';ll understand better the whole situation when u've done that...savvy? ;P
Heys gal,
Theres no such thing as inadequacy in you!
The silver lining is there, as long as you keep looking out for it *hugz*
I'm finally back in Melb now.. we'll catch up alrite?
*huz*
ade: You're back!! :D Whee!!!
We'll catch up, definitely. And worry not, I'm alrite :D Really. I promise.
I would have said something comforting, but since there are already 23 comments before me, I doubt there's much I have to say.
the great swifty: But thanks for the thought anyways :D Very much appreciated!
john vain: I had Hofbrauhaus beer, Bailey's, Malibu Pineapple, and half a bottle of Heineken, all in a nite...
That's wayyyy pass my limit if you know how much(little) I can tolerate.
But yes, I shall keep on walking... and searching, connecting the dots.
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