Gratitude...

I was browsing blogs, and I couldn't help but feel a little envious of my friends who are in the entertainment field. The job is great, working hours are flexible. Their colleagues are hip and happening. Basically, they're cool! It sounds almost impossible, almost too good to be true. And the best bits are, you're an icon, and you get the perks of being a little 'celebrity'.

I so wanna be like them!

There were also times that I sat down with some friends, and they started talking about the stock market, their investments, and aims of being financially independent... etc. The corporate yuppies basically! You get the drift.Dang! The gorgeous suits they put on, the killer awesome high heel shoes, the designer handbags... And of course, the best bit is having the ability to have the 5C's - cash, career, credit cards, cars, condos... all by the age of 30! **gasps**

I SO dream of being like them too!

Then I snap myself back into reality...

And here I am, with nothing to call my own. Still a student at the age of **i shall not reveal** No degree, non-existent love life, no financial stability... no what-so-ever. Sigh, what a sad pathetic life. And the situation is made worse, when it seems that I'm the only one on home arrest, cramming my ass off for the upcoming exams.

I asked myself.
"Why do you wanna become a doctor?"

The answer was there all along,
tucked away somewhere.
But suddenly, it became apparent.
"Because I can."

I'm grateful that I have the ability to, and am fortunate enough to be given the opportunity to. I have never been sure that this is what I want to do... but suddenly something dawned upon me after all these years. It's not about the money, it's not about the reputation, it's not about the prestige.

It's about me...

It's about the satisfaction I get...
It's about that kind, thankful smile that I receive...
It's about that hand that holds mine,
Old and wrinkled, yet so gentle and warm...
It's about the million-and-one ways that they say "thank you"
without actually having to say it.

Because their actions,
have already spoken louder than words.

And then I realise, that the hard work that I'm putting in now,
no matter how bad the situation seems at the moment,
is all worth it...

"I can, and I want to" - and not everyone can say the same.
THAT, is why...

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Inspired by Sue Walker, my ultimate role model :) Seeing her at the hospital today, reminded me of how much I want to be like her! Only better...

The only way of finding the limits of the possible is by going beyond them into the impossible.
Arthur C. Clarke