Emo

Don't you just hate it when some days, you just wake up feeling emo?

It could have been triggered by some event that happened the day before, something that someone said, some remarks thrown to you, some action by others, eventhough they tried to conceal it, or hide it from you... and yet you just know it when they're lying... or sometimes, just out of the blue, out of nothing at all... you emo.

Yeap, you're right, I'm again... having one of those emo days. Somehow, I got up this morning, and the long distance phone call to a friend who's having relationship trouble last night, triggered me to write this long post about myself in Facebook... Weird, but I'd like to share it with whoever's remotely interested in my life, in getting to know me a little better.

About me:
An emotional, sentimental girl, trying to find herself in this whole wide world. Frequently searching for her inner self, for answers, for the real meaning of life. Confident, "happy-go-lucky" on the outside, but an insecure pessimistic girl deep inside. Constantly aiming to be more refined, mature, true and right. ** as stated in the title of my blog**

Someone who still questions herself whether she's in the right profession. Loves being the caring, compassionate self she is. Loves making a difference in someone else's life... no matter how small sometimes. Someone who enjoys the interaction with patients, who takes pleasure in knowing that her deed today, is indeed appreciated. Someone who goes to bed smiling, knowing that the little something she did today, just gave someone else, an extra 20 years of his/her life.

Yet, she hates the fact that she's in a competitive field, where it's like a "bug eat bug" world out there. Where you need to always be on top to get somewhere... Where the working hours are screwed, and hence... your life outside work gets screwed.

Someone who loves with all her heart, a true romantic, who loves dancing in the rain, walking down memory lane. Someone who gives her 110% to the ones she loves, yet, once trust is broken too many a times, there is absolutely no turning back for this stubborn Aries. There is no walking down the same stupid path twice.

Yet, she's still an optimist who believes in "love like you've never been hurt. And live like there's no tomorrow".

A little girl who appreciates gifts in every way! Giving, receiving, big or small! **who doesn't?** Loves little love notes tucked under her pillow, loves stolen kisses under the moonlight. Loves having her hand held, feeling safe and protected. Likes surprises in life, yet still aims to have stability and security.

Someone who wants to be the only one, and not just another one. Believes in ideal relationships and in soul mates. But also a realist, in that relationships take work and compromise, and absolute honesty and openness. If you are not absolutely truthful, or are concealing the truth from me, you might as well be lying! and I absolutely detest liars!

Believes that she should NEVER do to others, what she does not what to be done to herself... Not after going through what she went through, to become the person that she is today...

And yes, I still believe I'm a simple girl... Ain't tooooo complicated, no? Tee hee hee...

ps: And yes, do not lie to me. Because I'll know... sooner or later. I'll know...