Maybe it's because the weekend's coming. (That means I've been here in Bairnsdale for a long time!) I'm working my last ED day shift tomorrow before my 6 days off! *yippie* But I guess, being away from Jon, not having him around to always pick-me-up and cheer me up, does make a difference. Makes me revert to the person that I was... the thinker that I was. Always pondering about my life, my career, my future...
Browsing through friendster really made me miss my friends. Suddenly, I thought to myself, maybe I should have made extra effort to keep in touch with some of them. Seeing how everyone's grown up, and gone their separate ways. Most are working and successful. Some are engaged or married, and some even have kids! It really makes me feel like I haven't put much effort into "being there for you" or "being a good friend".
Browsing through some of pictures kinda made me feel that, perhaps I should have been nicer to them? That, perhaps if I wasn't the "snobby, popular girl" that I was, that I would have been more approachable and likeable? Or, perhaps... if I made an effort to salvage the friendship when we started drifting apart, that I'd still be in contact with them now... or even, be their best friend, or bridesmaid, or godmother to their children??
I couldn't help but wonder... Did my "achievements and popularity" back in school then make me a snob? I know my true friends didn't think so, and would still love me for who I am... but maybe, if I were to be a tad bit nicer to the others, would I be in their life now?
Perhaps, I could fix things now that I realise they are "broken"?
OR... Is it too late to find out?
To those that I might have offended in the past, I'm truly sorry.
** I wish I could attend the reunion - just because. Once a BBGSian, always a BBGSian **
BBGS - We pledge to thee.
*** Don't think you can spot me, but I was right at the back, and had my hand raised up. ;) Yup, that's me ***
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