REFLECTIONS

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It saddens me,
Knowing that you understand me so well,
That you know me inside out,
what I'm like, and what I want...
Yet you allow me
To suffer in silence.
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It's difficult to digest,
That no matter how badly you want something,
No matter how hard you pray,
That sometimes, dreams just don't come true.
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Perhaps fairy tales were just made up,
To deceive,
to make ourselves feel better,
Knowing that if you are patient enough,
That if you want it bad enough,
Maybe someday, somehow,
It too, could happen to you...
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It's a wonder,
How I'm so awake and rational,
Yet so deeply asleep in a dream,
Not wanting to wake up.
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Perhaps I should,
Slap myself hard on my face,
And ask myself,
Why, do I still linger??
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But I already have the answer,
It's because I love you so.
That after all these years,
I still can't let go.