Does it always have to have a title?

She could not comprehend why she couldn't stop tearing over a trivially small matter this evening. She took a drive to calm herself down, to take her mind off things. She then stopped at the supermarket to get something for her little baby - The one who's constantly there for her, the one who always seems to know when she needs a cuddle. 

Her phone wouldn't stop ringing, but she was drowning in her own thoughts. All she could hear was "What does this make us? What's the next step? Where do we go from here?". She wasn't ready to talk. She couldn't string words together to form comprehensible sentences. Her mind was a blank, not so much from anger, but more disappointment and sadness.  

He was right. It wasn't about today. It was about all that's been happening. It's about them.

"I think we need some space" she finally said it. She finally uttered those words, that she never thought she would have enough courage of saying. "There's so much you need to figure out, that we need to figure out". 

I think she finally realised that she wanted more than that. She wanted him to want just her, to respect her, to appreciate her for the little things she do, for her patience, for always trying and not giving up. She wanted effort from him. She wanted to see change, and not just sweet words from his mouth. 

But above all, she wanted herself back. She wanted to not suffocate anymore. She does not want to be the person she is. She does not like the person she is. She kept telling herself, "I do not want to lose myself, my old self" but I guess in life, you win some, you lose some...

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Pick yourself up, and life goes on, baby...

I wish Sex and the City was still showing on the small screen! Having said that, I can't wait for the movie to be released here. I haven't been to a movie in yonks! 

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On a totally separate, irrelevant note,

It was great meeting up with Kin Shang again! I reckon the last time I saw him was probably 2 years ago, minus the time when he bumped into me in Glenny a couple of months back. I didn't even see him then, cause I was totally buggered after work...



But this time around, we managed to sit down, catch up and reminisce the good old times~! Oh how I miss his funny antics! :) eheheheh... We should totally do this again some time soon...

It'll be soooo great if the rest of the gang was here too, don't you reckon??